love yourself first.

I was engaged to a good guy a few years ago. I feel like it's okay to mention now that some time has passed. That time period had a huge impact on my life. Isn't it every girls dream to get married?

The biggest lesson I learned was, to love yourself first. And trust me, I am still working on that.

Every aspect of your life is dependent on it. I don't ever want to be someone who needs to rely on someone else for my own happiness. I want to know what is important to me, what truly makes me happy. I want to feel Heavenly Fathers love for me every single day, and know that there is a plan in place. I want to have the faith and strength to make decisions to help fulfill that plan. I want to love myself first and foremost.

When it comes to relationships, careers, trials and other areas of our lives, its easy to get lost. I know personally I can get wrapped up in certain situations and become blind to everything else going on around me.

The last two years have been more focused on strengthening the relationship with myself and Heavenly Father. I was reading through THIS article when researching the subject and found a lot of great information. It mentioned looking for the positive and realizing that happiness doesn't depend on outward circumstances like previously thought. I couldn't agree more, it's something I strive towards every day. Working on yourself is in no way, selfishness. It feels great to be independently happy! Part of that comes from eliminating the need for approval.

I can testify that Heavenly Father knows us so well. There is not a doubt in my mind that He is aware of every single detail of our/my life because I share it with him. I feel our Saviors love stronger as I try to grow closer to Him. It's easier to remind myself that the things I want in life will come when Heavenly Father knows I'm ready for them. The same with, the things in life that I don't want to come, is because He knows that I can handle them.

The person I will spend eternity with, the relationships I will cherish and build along the way, that career I'd like, the lessons I don't want to learn haha, etc. It will all come. If only I can stand on my own two feet and treat them the way they are meant to be treated. One day I will be able to share all of those things with people in my life, when He knows I am ready. When He knows that I can give all of the love I have for myself, to someone else.